I work for a large, falsely cheerful, soulless corporation.
I hate my job for the most part. And I've only been there for 4 shifts.
I don't really drink often but I came home after my shift ended and poured myself a quarter glass of rye which I proceeded to drink straight. I felt better after. My headache went away and I felt slightly distanced from my job. This was a good feeling. However, I know it's stupid to use alcohol to deal with issues so I won't do it often.
Apparently (according to my friends who have worked for bigger companies) the self disgust fades after a while. Apparently one day I'll be able to distance myself from work without any help. I hope that day is soon. At the same time I hope it never comes, because that would mean I've resigned myself to my fate (ie job).
Goddamn conundrums...
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